Few first moments this month

Well a friend of mine told me she kept a little journal of her daughters " first milestones" iv been meaning to do the same, so will try harder to keep track of every new milestone you take this year.
Since you literally do something new every day, it's hard to keep them all in mind and write it down, but here are some firsts for this month
First.......
~Laugh
~First time Trying fruit, (I gave u some fruit to lick) u loved it! So we then
blended a banana and spoon fed you (mostly ended up all over you but you def ate a tiny bit of it)
~First time you rolled over from tummy to back
~First few steps you took,as we held your waist you stood up and put one foot ahead of the other. ( that was very cool to see you do tht!)
You learning how to entertain yourself so I can now lay you down for a few min while I run around an get things done.
You started making some kind of gremlin noise when u stand on your feet,that's actually pretty cute.

You love the tv! Any time it's on you just stare at it with fascination ( sometimes its the only way your dad knows how to calm you when u get fussy with him at night, and I'm in the shower.
well that's it for now monkey butt :)

"who u lookin at willis"

you two love the tv!!!

you grandpa loves youvery much

play date with paxton

nap time

hmmm

yahhh

blue eye girl

                            FIRST SIT UP TOY


THIS WAS AN OLDER VIDEO... YOU WERE 3 MONTHS HERE, YOUR JAMMIN TO THE MUSIC

4 months~ Patience and Intuition

def my baby

WOW, i guess you keep me that busy that i havent updates in 2 months!!!

i dont even know where to start..... yes every single parent i have ever met always told me one thing " they grow up so fast" i never fully understood that till now.

 Every morning i see you, it seems you literally changed and grew over night. From your Smile, to every noise you make changes day to day. From the moment you wake up till the second you go to sleep, I crave to be around you. The big happy grin on your face every morning when you see me is the best feeling in the world. NO matter how tired i am, when i look open up your bassinet you start wiggling and kicking every part in your body with such a joy.

 You’ve developed a clear preference for me, something I tried to avoid by including your dad as much as possible, but secretly enjoy and am happy for. I know that in just a few short months, you’ll become a daddy’s girl, so I savor these moments of being the favorite. We both still can’t believe we have a daughter,i stare at you all the time and am completely at awe that your ours and come out of me. 

The processes and thoughts that go on in your brain are fascinating to me. I see you looking everywhere, trying to make sense of the world, searching out our faces for emotions, waiting for a smile so that you could squeal in delight. You’ve been lifting your head up (looking up) for a few weeks now and that makes you look like such a grown girl.

 You dont ever like to stay still or lay in one spot. You love stimulation and watching everything around you. 

You love when daddy puts your on his arm tummy down and “flies” you all over the house. There’s just a hint of a smile, but mostly a serious face and you scan your surroundings from a different perspective. 

 

You’ve developed so many preferences. You’ve always been very particular about things you don’t like, but now I see specific things that you LOVE. 

You hate pacifiers yet anything that touches your hand goes in your mouth. you love to nibble on your dads thumb as he carries you in the carrier. 

 You’ve gotten this new habit of arching your back at everything. I carry you around like a little baby and you arch your back and look at everything upside down and you just love it. I think you’re loving the new control you have over your body so anytime I hold you, you look like a curved C. 

Everything is defiantly becoming easier, as i learn about you ( although you keep changing) im iv become so much more intune with you and can tell usually what you want and what your trying to tell me. 

As your growing more & more everyday, iv noticed such as change in myself, in the past 4 months i have changed like never before. Its almost like i have a new perception on everything. Wants, needs, enjoyment, entertainment, friends & family. It all has changed to how i use to see it and how i see it now. 

OK i can keep writing more and more about whats happening since a few days feels like a few months have gone by. BUt now ill just try and write more often. till then here are a some pics

at sea world with your grandma

with your g-ma connie

me in the blk n white and your pic at 4 months

my dad, and now your grandpa

tired lil girl

fathers day pic

mural that we took part in, with your initials in the corner

first time meeting another baby boy

kisses

smiling in your sleep

baby Einstein

my crooked lil smile

bath time

aw yooo knw what im sayin

8 weeks~from bars to baby bottles ;)

Well since its 2 in the morning i wont make this long.  Theres always lots of stories and things on my mind to say but not always enough time.
I see why people with kids always tell me " they grow up so fast" i think the reason is.... just like anything else in life, when your constantly staying busy, learning, enjoying and being challenged you dont notice time, and there for it fly's by.
I know time will fly by and before i know it, ill be saying " just yesterday you were a baby" .
Therefor im making sure to stop and enjoy those special moments ( when your waking up in the morning all bright eyed making little sounds wating for me to feed you, when u fall asleep on me after you eat with a little smirk on your face as your drifting off to la la land, )  and there are many more.
One of my clients asked me today how was it being a mom, in fact many people ask that, and of course i say oh "great1" i mean what else are you suppose to say ??
But i havent actually really thought about it.    Because everyday since you were born, iv been pretty consumed with just adjusting and learning all about you and my new life, and though things are pretty different now, i haven't really taken the time to think about the bigger picture.
So today when someone asked me that instead of just the usual "great" i thought about it all and explained why n how it feels.
Overall iv realized having a child and being a parent, def makes life more satisfying.
It consumes your heart and mind with an overwhelming new love, that feels amazing and can't be explained. ( & im not saying that cuz everyone says that, im saying it cuz its actually true).

I def never thought i would be one of those people, who could enjoy stayin in on the weekends. But now I couldn't think of anything that was ever better.

We haven't turned into hermits, (trust me) I still miss and enjoy seeing & going out with friends, but its not that important anymore.

I would compare it to dating........ its fun and exciting, but until you find the right person, you just still feel a bit empty, and are looking for something more.

 haha this wasnt suppose to be long... ok well everything else aside...
The exciting news!!!!!!
Last night you slept through the night for the first time!!!!!!!! ( ok it was 12:30am-6am) but thats the longest stretch of sleep you and i have had do far!!!
This didn't come without some freakin out on my part.
The early morning birds and light came in and i opened up my eyes and just about had a heart attack, i jumped outta bed and pulled your bassinet cover down & grabbed you outta of it.( this of course startled you & you began to cry)

iv gotten so use to waking up every 2-3 hrs that when that didnt happen, I thought something was wrong.
After realizing your ok & breathing, i was so excited, you slept that long, I couldn't go back to sleep /=

i think the trick was the swaddle! 

i tried when you were first born, but you didnt like it very much, so i stopped.

hangover 3

My dad watched you the other night and said, you whack yourself in the face while sleeping and wake your self up.
He said to try and swaddled u again, and so i did. IT WORKED!!
This is why i had time to come n write on there, i figured i would have some time to watch tv, write n sleep a little before you woke up. now that i have 5 more hours!!! keeping my fingers crossed thats true & u will keep this up (=

                                                                                                        (First time attempting to talk)

time, time is no longer mine ~ 7 weeks

my 31st birthday & mothers day (happen to be on the same day)

 My sweet Alexandra, you sure keep me busy these days (=. so much to say but, i gotta get some sleep in there somewhere  
Well you defiantly dont let me get bored, wish i could say your a super easy baby and you never cry, but.... That's not the case. When u sleep your of course an angel, but when u are awake, you don't skip a beat.

Although we have taken  you almost everywhere now, and i do everything with you attached to me side. Your asleep when this all happenes. Since you sleep alot for the most part, and def through everything,  (although your sleep only last 30min to a few hrs) it still makes it easy to take you anywhere.
 But..... when you are awake ......totally different story!
Im learning all your signs and cues for what you need and want, cuz when you wake up, you demand 100% of my attention.
 Rather its to be; fed, changed, played with, rocked, burped or just to held you want it all!!!  Sooooo there is no putting you down and letting you entertain youself. I guess its only fair since  when u actually sleep nothing seems to phase you.

morning time

Although im learning everyday and hopefully getting better at juggling everything, iv realized time is rarely mine and when it is, i have to choice wisely on what to do with it.

At night i sleep when you are sleeping and wake up every 2-3 hrs with you for when you need to be fed and changed. But that the easy part. Its during the day that gets tricky. I try to get stuff done when your taking a lil cat nap but with alot to do everyday, it doesnt always work out.

I understand why people say " you wont have much time to do anything once you have a baby"  well thats not entirely true, you have some time, but it just gets cut in half. Half mine n the other half yours.

Which leaves me now only a quarter of time i use to have to do everything.

The hardest part for me, has been tring to learn how to put the rest of the world on hold when I'm busy w/you, and not get stressed out or feeling bad about doing so.

Whatever I happen to be doing or is going on during the day me, the moment your eyes open, the whole world kinda has to go away.
Your needs have to be taken care of first before mine and everyone else's.
Its NOT hard to do that when you love someone so much,  but the hard part comes when i get back to the world i realize how much more i have to do & how behind i am at times.

Since your so little still, you dont have a predicable schedule yet and at any moment you can go to sleep or be awake.

OB street fair

So its now just a game of figuring out what needs to get done when, and how fast can i do it.

I always said " I love challenges" and u keep me nothing short of that.

All that aside i can honestly say all the hard times become worth it, when you are happy. Ya maybe cheesy but true.
You started to smile the other day when i come up close and said something to you in a silly voice, i kept on talking to you as you smiled and fluttered your arms & legs with excitement.
   I quickly tried grabbing my phone to catch a video or pic of your first smile to show your dad, but between not wanting to miss a moment of that and my own  stupid eyes filling up with tears making them so blurry, i didnt get a chance to.

this is how we roll now

watching a pregnant bikini contest (your in disguise)

your dad tring to change your diaper @ a festival

grandpa george

first bath!! u loved it!

del mar (watching the solar eclipse)


First, Mothers Day as a mother
First, smile at me
First, making other baby sounds
First, passing gas non stop (;
First, seeing you grow out of your clothes
First,  grasp of a toy above you w/ those hands you havent discovered yet

beachy time